Surrender: to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc., because you know that you will not win or succeed
When I first quit drinking, I was told that all I needed to do was surrender my life and my will to the care of a loving higher power. I could choose my own conception of what that meant.
I quickly got rid of the harsh guy in the sky God (never did trust that man)but I didn’t have a whole lot to replace him.
In spite of having been intensely and inexplicably drawn to spiritual concepts and practices, I had no personal relationship with anything bigger than my own mind.
This was a challenge because my mind is clever and quick and kept trying to convince me that I was just about to get this whole life thing sorted out and absolutely did not require any outside assistance.
Following its best direction had landed me in the same damn hole over and over and it was clear (in moments) that I was going to need another way to navigate my life. Continue reading